Mental Health + Latest Hime Inspo

 

Sup?! I know it takes me forever to do something with my blog. All I have to say, it was easier updating a blog when I was a teenager. 

I've been looking into probably (and I would never say it lightly) being AD. I have not been diagnosed, but I have been going to the psychologist for quite some time now and I definitely struggle with depression and anxiety (officially). I am not going to make this into an awareness post or anything, but lately I have been struggling a lot to do everyday normal tasks. So I guess when I start new passion projects, the rest of my ideas and plans have to take the back seat. If I ever get officially diagnosed, it would make much sense a lot of things that I suffer from. 

To make this a bit more cheerful, my brain has being going a lot towards my dream wardrobe. I have mentioned before that I want to gravitate towards himegyaru and  himekaji as well. You see, that is my dream style... but I know it takes a lot of effort, time and energy. I easily fall into wearing the same things, because they feel safe. So probably, the smart thing to do is to ease the cute factor into my everyday instead of going all the way in.

(I want to try harder... way way harder than this...)

I read some tips on how to start making a small targeted closet, and I am gathering some basic pieces to mix and match. My first step was to gather a moodboard, and look for things that I already have in my wardrobe to go from there. Here's a bit of my board so far: 

I know there is more variety, but I am in love with the A-Line dress+soft cardigan combo ATM. So one of my first looks is definitely going to incorporate that♥ I have started shopping around in Mercari, and after I learned how to use JP Shopping instead of Buyee... my wallet hurts again.

So far I owe the following items:

1 Sleeveless Black Dress/1 Off shoulder black dress/ 1 Peach Sleeveless Dress/ AP Marie Disney Skirt/1 pink maid dress/Strapless Floral A-line dress/1 peasant white top/1 frilly white shirt/ 1 pair of pink pumps/ 1 pair of pink bow mules/ 1 pair of LL gels/pink crocs

Wish List:

Fluffy pink or white cardigan/Cream or white light cardigan/coat/Black Cardigan/Light pink purse/Half-wig/DoCoMo phone♥

Will keep updating my journey, until I reach a decent point where I use it often enough. For now it's a dream in progress♥

Have a lovely week!

XOXO- Kiwiitan

Thrift Flip Room Decour☆

Hayo!

I few months ago I went to the swap meet with my gf to find new stuff for my room. My theme is pretty specific. Everything is pink and red and there are some variations of colors I allow. I'll do some room tour soon when I'm happy with the layout ;v;

I found some pretty kistchy stuff in rough conditions, but nothing I could not fix with lots of cleaning and a few coats of paint.

So welcome to a mini DIY of mine kkkkk

This buddy looked dead inside a little bit. Really gross and half-assed lol.

I haggled for this beauty. It was originally 20 bucks but with the original filthy state I let the seller give it to me for 10 USD (I'm so proud lol).

I know it does not look bad on photo but there was a lot of dirt and questionable goo on it.

After cleaning them I gave them a fresh coat of gesso to even them out (Thanks Moriah Elizabeth.)

After a few coats of 99cent bubblegum pink acrylic and some details in different colors for accents they are ready to go and be displayed!

he just looks about done with me and my dirty a$$ room lol

Kewpie, Bebichhichi and Popple's corner over here 💖

Really judgy face??? But better than the souless look, right?

What do you think? Aren't they fun additions to my romantic kistchy theme?

Bonus: 

This mirror was also a find I fell in love with... added this little guy and two diner ornaments also found in the same place.

Thank you for stopping by to this chaotic place my blog has become.💖 

Hime Gyaru Look #1 + Short Life Update

 

Hello!

So I have been dreaming, eating and talking about Hime ever since last time you saw me here. I am almost so sick of myself at this point, because I was about to not do this today. 

Then I was thinking really hard on what gal content I needed to make for here and insta. Since I was sick I had almost no energy to do makeup at all nor take care of myself. I had also promised myself months ago that I would give Twitch a go. I feel lonely sometimes, so I think streaming can help me be more outgoing. I did a short test with some friends and I felt so awkward. I used to be energetic and loved being on camera, but the older I get the more stupid I feel. Anyways... a little Animal Crossing won't hurt anyone.

I had a really big "to do" list to finish cleaning my room, bleach my brows and take a shower... Then I did a Insta Reel and proceded to take some photos of a casual but cute bear inspired outfit and since the make was really cute... I took the chance to do one more coord. Overall, my Saturday was more productive than what I give credit to myself for. 

Also, please look at this bear pouch!!! This was a DIY Aoki and I did together while she was visiting. It's a Daiso Bear Pouch, but she made the face ♥ I did one too but mine was💩💩💩💩

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Ears: Ebay

Shirt: Marshall's
Overall: Shein

Now, here comes my first official attempt at Hime. It was made with stuff I already owned, but was not confident enough to wear. The story behind this dress is that my GF commissioned two dresses for me last year. One is black and this one was supposed to be pink....  but then when I saw the actual "pink" shade it was more like an orangey/salmon color of some sort... I was both happy and sad at the same time, because the dress fit perfectly, but that pink was a bad choice. I was sad to tell my bby that I did not like the color at all, but she understood. I am just too picky about my pinks, specially when I know the actual shade I need. 

Make

For this make I wanted rosy cheeks, really noticeable and Barbie-like. I didn't use bottom eyelashes, but still tried the droop with some eyeliner and of course tear bags♥

New pair of eyelashes from Aliexpress

This bow I had already, and since I do not own any exte right now... instead I did a little bun-bun high up. I personally think that hair is important, but mostly having bangs in the right area as well as framing pieces. I would maybe get a clip on curly pony tail and style it... I also saw some tutorials I'm trying later both on my hair and in a wig.

Coordinate

My cellphone was not liking me taking photos after sundown... so there are fucked up shadows everywhere. You can't see but I am wearing fishnets and some hold metal accesories … and the shoes are from Alie, but tbh they are a bit uncomfy.  

Overall, this dress has potential, but maybe we can rise the hemline, change the bow on the wait and maybe change the lace on the bottom?

I have more outfits planned, but please be nice to me since it's my first go (lol). I appreciate your concrit! 

For now that is all, I'm so tired and I want to bury my face in my pillows.... Maybe tomorrow will be a chill Sunday. 

Stay tuned for a room tour and a haul! I already started working on those posts♥

XoXo-

Kiwiitan

My Gyavolution 💖

Hi everyone!

I was snooping around Danielle Rianna's blog and remembered she did a post about how she got into gyaru (please read it here). 

Since I was sick for the past few weeks (fuck COVID tbh) I have no new content nor I have been able to do any makeup.... so, I decided to walk along my gyaru timeline and how I got to this. I am also going to roast myself and the J-fashion com a little.

Buckle up, cuz this is going to be a ride.

As a teenager, I used to be into otaku stuff, like I would read all the Shoujo Beat magazines I could. Amongst all those numbers there would always be ads about creeper shoes and lolita articles. I was also highly attracted by Ai Yazawa's work. Eventually, I came to know about J-fashion and visual kei thru J-Music (Nana Kitade, Ali Project, the Gazette, SuG, Tommy, etc).

Around the time I was 16, I started wearing decora and a mixture of oshare-kei or whatever I could find that suited my "nyappy" ass. I made a lot of my clothing and accessories back then. I had a lot of time, energy, imagination, and a nonexistent budget. I was basically, like many kids in the scene a low-budget Harajuku kid from Mexico. I even participated in my local Harajuku meets and organized my own. 

The J-fashion community back home was as sweet and toxic as it could be. However, I found my place and many many friendships that I keep to this very day. 

By the time I was 18 I already knew what gyaru was. I remember vividly the first time I saw Ageha magazine scans and that reddish-brown hair tone pretty much everyone wore back in the day. I fell for Jesus Diamante and what I considered myself in love with himegyaru. I was an avid researcher for j-fashion. I learned all the styles and trends as well as all the brands I could memorize. However, I attempted the look for a short while and gave up.

Me and my sister in a Harajuku Day Walk circa 2011-2012. Her outfit was totally handmade by me and my mom. I of course thrifted almost everything.

OG McDonald's meet. Like 50 of us would fill the restaurant right after every J-fashion meeting in Mexico City. 

I totally love everyone's craftiness and creativity back then♥

It was 2011 and my transition phase had begun, it was hard to let go of my decora self. So I suffered a period of visual kei inspired looks and whatever I managed to put together. To me, it was easier to not label myself anymore since I was scared to be called a poser. So I slapped on the term "Aomoji-kei" cuz it was safer to do so back then. 

Dress made with literally a cheap leftover fabric for less than a dollar (e_e) and I did not own a sewing machine atm so it's hand-sewn. I remember getting a lot of hate for this look by the International com for it being so trashy. Now I understand that some people were spoiled and did not live in a developing country like myself. 

Back then there were a lot of activities and challenges too. For this one, everyone tried to gender-bend or some shit like that XD So meet Kiyo, my alter ego. 

One of my first official and serious attempts. I believe it wasn't that bad. 

My first wig I ever styled. I will give myself an A for effort. 

By then the Latinx Gyaru com started with a collab YouTube channel by the name of Gal TV. To me, it was amazing to see so many gyaru who also spoke my language. I felt starstruck and I wanted to dive in. They had a mentorship for baby gals so I took all the help from Danyy and the back then community leaders. As a baby gal I felt really scared about what others had to say about how gal I was. It is not a secret that a lot of us faced this situation and the drama that came with it. I think that this era made me learn how to take everything with a grain of salt and also work really really hard to polish my looks.

I felt a little nervous at first, my first attempts were there. I practiced my makeup religiously and wanted it to be clearly "gyaru". To me, since I lacked the budget to get brand and physically it was complicated to fit into a Japanese size, I focused all my energy on having a polished make.

I went thru a lot of trials and errors until I found rokku. To me, it had the best of both worlds. My love for visual kei, dark fashion, and the over-the-top sexy feel of gyaru. Another great thing about Rokku is that it could be done with American brands that could fit my size. I did another nose dive into Hot Topic, Dolls Kill, and whatever I could find in my local thrift store. 

This was me trying to grab onto rokku and try to mix the "larme" trend that started back then. Also, I have lipstick on my teeth and I just realized it after years, lol. 

I reaaaaaaaally loved Chipopo's look back then. Like the pouty lips, soft bangs and fresh face look were my go to. 

It was 2016 and I kept the rokku look, but also dabbled into a more romantic style. I started to lean towards large and that "Femme Fatale" look worn by Risa Nakamura. I was also collaborating with the first numbers of GyaruGo! Magazine next to the Spanish-speaking community. 

I took a semi-hiatus (2017-2019) for the lack of motivation and because it was time to focus on my degree. I kept the cutesy-alternative looks toned down. I got a lot of influence from larme, Korean beauty, and my own ideas of fashion thru thrifting. 

However, I had sort of a revival by the end of 2019 because of my new job as a product designer for a makeup company. Also, TikTok and many gals encouraged me to get back. I tried my best to provide a safe and fun environment for the Spanish-speaking community. I feel like 2020 was a good year for us, and we were able to reconnect as a whole. I am really happy and thankful for all my gal friends who I got closer to. The Gyaru Go! com, as well as the international gals from Papillon and other projects, have been such inspo! 

I recognize that there are a lot of things that are not 100% perf yet because we have different perspectives and life experiences.... but I am happy that I connected with many responsible incredible people who are doing everything they can to change for the better♥ Even with the ups and downs, I can still feel in love with gyaru!

Thank you all for staying this far, I know it was a lot and most people find this kind of post boring. I just had to let it out and share my experience.

Please comment below a bit about your story too! I love to know♥